But just as she started to heal from a personal trauma, she found that a tech giant was starting to dismantle her new, safe space.
In December 2012, Libbi was raped on the campus of a prestigious school in Massachusetts. She was 19 at the time, a college sophomore. After the attack, she developed PTSD and depression and took time off school, trying to heal. She spent time recovering in the hospital, and traditional talk therapy helped. But, she says, she found the most comfort in a more contemporary setting. Libbi joined the microblogging site Tumblr and started browsing posts tagged with topics she was interested in, like depression and PTSD, meeting others that were going through similar experiences. In an interview, she gave me permission to use her name, and explained how she evolved from feeling totally alone after the assault, to much more connected and supported through social media:
I felt really isolated because I didn’t know anyone else that had PTSD. You don’t realize that what you’re experiencing is normal … After I was done with the hospital and I didn’t have group therapy anymore, a friend mentioned that there was a pretty vibrant mental health community on Tumblr.
So I made a blog there. I started randomly one day, posting that I wished I could make a mental health “resume” so I wouldn’t have to go through my experience every time I saw a new doctor. I did another post of more of a personal nature on the night of my birthday because I was angry and feeling that my attacker had taken a lot away from me. I wrote him an open letter that said, “You may have raped me, you may have taken this from me, but I’m still here, and my life is only going to get better, and frankly, I feel sorry for you.” Continue reading